TRUE LIFE: I Have A Deformity

So this is my first Blog! About me : I’m a 22 year old female born with a severe facial deformity and I long to meet people just like me, who in the light of all there struggles are still pressing on. I’m a very optimistic person, I have hopes and dreams, but in the wake of all my desires always lies reality. I wonder will I ever meet someone, who comes to love me for everything I am and everything they see. I long for connection that’s greater than anything I ever wanted in my life. Yes, I’ve wished and have wanted for my deformity to go away or have a surgey to fix it, but I see that’s its impossible. I’m lucky I’m alive and well, it can definitely be worse.
So I wish for real friends, but I also wish to be a real friend. I don’t believe I ever just been friends with anyone with out resorting to envy and I hate that about myself. I want a lot of things, but I also know that they wont just fall into my lap. Which is weird, because some people tell me to be patient, good things will come to you, while others say God loves those who aren’t afraid to help themselves. I don’t want pity. I just want to know if there’s anyone out thee like me, or if anyone out there is willing to take a chance on me?
If you have any questions feel free to ask!